Fighting words...

My words are my weapon,

My only protection. The only real forces

in my possession.

Like thunder they roll

and like lightning they strike They cut and they sting

and they put up a fight

They'll seek you, and bind you,

and call you a coward They steal beauty and peace

like a knife to a flower

They come at you hard,

they take their desire Though they burn in my throat

like hell's hottest fire

I meant them to hurt you,

to take back what was mine To show you my anger,

and to damage your pride

You made me a fool

and you never thought twice And now by resentment,

you're paying the price

I meant what I said

in the midst of my fury But now that it's done..

please....please forgive me -Bing

Lessons

Still learning the lessons you left here for me. I can't help wondering how long it's gonna be.

When will I get it, how soon will I grow? Knowing all of the things you would want me to know?

To make a wise choice and make myself number two..., always putting other people first, just like you would do.

To stand up for the weak and to speak for the mute, To seek mercy and justice and love at the root.

To work hard to succeed and to give all I had,

thank you for teaching me these lessons, Dad.

-Bing

(To my dad; The best man I've ever known)

For my son, Ezra...

When God made you he blessed me

Then he gave me you, to test me

He said "How much do you love me,

And what will you put above me?"

"Take my son, teach him to love me

Make him the man of God he should be"

"Watch him grow and guide his steps

Lead him through the darkest depths

When you can't see through the dark sea

Teach your son to trust me"

"Walk by faith and never waiver

Be at peace that I'm your savior

I sent my only son to save you

Look my child, at what I gave you"...

Lord, you never saw me as a reject

With every flaw and every defect

You meant this child for no other

Please, guide me to be his mother...

-Bing